It was back to school day.
I'm not sure I was ready for this.
They had their clothes, backpacks, shoes, supplies,
but I just wasn't ready for them to be gone for a majority of the day.
It's kind of strange when I think about them gone
having interactions with other kids and adults.
Having conversations, making choices, learning new things and I'm there for none of it.
However, I fancy myself a pretty good "reader of emotion", and so
I generally know how the day has gone when I talk to them at home.
We did the traditional 1st day of school pictures and walked together.
Chloe- Grade 6
Asher- Grade 5
Aidan- Grade 2
When we got to the school they usually line up with their class, but today there were no lines.
Asher just went right in. No hug, no kiss, no "see you later Mom". Just gone.
Then I couldn't find Aidan and assumed he'd gone in too. Chloe told me goodbye and the tears just came. I was too easily dismissed for the next 6 + hours. Aidan was just putting his bike away and I made sure to get my goodbye hug/kiss from him.
As we started to walk home Cole said, "Mom why are you crying?"
Me: "I'm sad the kids will be gone all day."
Cole: "But Mom, you still have me."
That boy knows how to cheer my heart.
Happy First Day of School children.







